Wednesday, October 10, 2018

A Broke Girl's Guide to Buying Makeup

A Broke Girl’s Guide to Buying Makeup

So you may remember a few months back when I did a post about my favorite makeup products (see post here).  I’m going to do something similar to that in this post because frankly, I’m tired of spending money on expensive makeup that doesn’t live up to its price.  And if I’m right, so are you.  There is literally nothing worse than spending hard earned money on something that doesn’t work or is a bad quality product for the price you spent on it.  That’s what’s been happening to me lately and I’m soooo over it.  So today I’m here to tell you about some amazing makeup that won’t break your bank account.

Okay so I understand if you’re making millions of dollars on Youtube and your clothing line and you have money laying around to go spend at Sephora 3 times a month, but some of us don’t have that kind of luxury.  Personally I don’t understand why some people will buy the new Urban Decay palate JUST BECAUSE there’s a shade called “pumpkin spice shimmer”.  And can we just talk about multi-level marketing companies such as Younique and Mary Kay?  Makeup is already tempting enough but now you have your own family and friends trying to sell you $100 worth of makeup you don't need. Like what kind of drug dealing is that?

All jokes aside, I have nothing against expensive makeup companies.  If that’s how you want to live your life, you do you girl.  But for those of you that are like me and are tired of this makeup nonsense, let me introduce you to some products that might make you actually like makeup again.

Maybelline Baby Skin Instant Pore Eraser

You’ve heard of the Porefessional primer by Benefit?  Well picture that but for less than half the price.  That’s basically what this primer is.  I’ve been using this primer for about a year now, and I can honestly say every word in the title is true.  It shrinks your pores AND leaves your skin feeling soft like a baby's.  It also makes your foundation go on so much smoother.  I use this pretty much every day.  You can also wear it just by itself without feeling like you’re wearing a lot of makeup.

Maybelline Fit  Me Dewy + Smooth Foundation

             I’ve struggled in the past with foundations because of my extremely sensitive skin.  So when this product came out about a year ago, I was curious because I had never tried a dewy foundation before.  I tried it and ended up loving it.  At first I was nervous about wearing it on a daily basis since foundation can make my skin weird and cause breakouts, but now I wear it pretty much every day and have had fewer breakouts than normal.  Just for reference, I’ve also tried the matte version of the Fit Me foundation and now that I’ve tried both I can say I like the dewy finish much better.  It is definitely worth the price and looks amazing! 

E.L.F. Beautifully Bare Concealer Stick

            I’ve found that E.L.F. products are either a hit or miss.  Some of their products turn out super great, and others don’t.  But this concealer is definitely one of the better products they’ve made.  I like concealer sticks because they are super easy to apply, and this particular one looks beautiful over the Fit Me foundation.  It is also great for concealing blemishes, but I usually just put it under my eyes (to cover the fact that I never sleep lol).  This is one of my favorite E.L.F. products and looks much better than some of the more expensive concealers I’ve tried before.

Revelon Colorstay Pressed Powder

            I’m not even going to lie; I’ve been using this powder ever since I started wearing makeup like five years ago.  My mom started me out on this powder and it’s just always worked for me so that’s why I’ve stuck with it.  Again, it pairs beautifully with the other products I’ve already mentioned and is so simple to put on, even on a day when you’re not wearing a lot of makeup.  I don’t set my face, so this is perfect to put on top of your foundation and gives your face a finished look.

E.L.F. 3-in-1 mascara

            I’ve talked about this mascara before in my other post, so I’m not going to say much about it here.  I still use this mascara every day and love it so much.  It looks great and lasts all day without getting under your eyes so if you’re looking for a good inexpensive mascara, I would definitely recommend this one.

Too Faced Better Than Sex Mascara

            So this is probably the only high brand makeup product that I actually like and wear on a daily basis.  I actually got it on sale for half off at Ulta (I don’t think I love it enough to pay full price).  The way I do my mascara is very specific so please bear with me for a moment while I explain.  First I apply a thin layer of the E.L.F. mascara and then layer this over the top.  The E.L.F. mascara provides a nice base and the Better than Sex provides the volume.  The E.L.F. mascara also helps the Better than Sex stay on better and last longer. People always think wearing two mascaras seems weird or something but I think these two go so well together!  If I'm not going out or don't have a lot of time to do my makeup, I just wear the E.L.F. mascara on its own.

Rimmel Lasting Finish Lipstick by Kate Lipstick

            I mentioned these in my other makeup post, but these lipsticks are my absolute most favorite things in the world.  I’m pretty sure I own almost every shade because they’re just so amazing!  They are super cheap and stay on for a long time.  They do tend to dry out my lips sometimes in the winter, so make sure you put on Chap Stick (which you should be doing anyway).  This lipstick completes my look and is probably my favorite part of my makeup routine.

the finished look! 

Some other tips for buying makeup:

  • Always read reviews first
  • Look online for coupons
  • Don't buy something just because "everyone uses it"
  • Shop at Ulta (they have stores everywhere and always have good deals!)
  • Make sure you get the right shade
  • Cheap price does not always mean cheap quality
  • Buy whatever you want because it's your life

That’s all for today!  I hope you enjoyed and maybe even try out some of these amazing products.  I’ll see you in my next post!

Wednesday, September 5, 2018

Updates and Other Random Stuff

Updates and Other Random Stuff

Hello and welcome back!
My last post was in…let’s see…July.  It’s currently September 4th.  It’s been awhile, so I thought I’d give you guys some updates on what’s been going on and talk about a few things I’ve been wanting to talk about.  So this isn’t going to be as structured as a normal post (laughing at myself because NONE of my posts are ever structured), it’s going to be a bunch of random thoughts compiled together so I hope at least some of this makes sense.

Where I’ve Been

First of all, you’re probably wondering where I’ve been.  I wish I could say I’ve been traveling the world doing really cool stuff, but unfortunately that’s not the case (as much as I wish it was).  I’ve been here, sitting at my desk pretty much the whole summer.  The reason for that is because I took the SAT test a few weeks ago and spent a majority of my summer studying for it.  I know, what a fun way to spend your summer.  Then when I wasn’t studying, I was working pretty much all the time.  It doesn’t sound like much, but it’s what I was doing all summer.  Between the two of those things, I didn’t really feel like sitting down and writing blog posts.

Why I haven’t Been Blogging

            I kind of answered that in the last paragraph, but there is another reason that doesn’t have to do with me just being busy.  For the last month or so, I’ve sat down three or four times to write a blog post but every time it just wasn’t my best work.  I have this thing when I write that if the words aren’t flowing the right way and I have to force them out, it’s not going to work.  I absolutely hate reading my writing when I feel forced to write or when I’m just not in the mood.  That’s what happened the last few times I’ve tried to write posts.

            Another reason is because of my lack of creativity.  I know I say this like five times a year, but writers block is real and it happens to pretty much every writer.  This doesn’t mean I don’t try or I don’t have ideas.  I do, they just haven’t been coming out the way I want them to.  I haven’t felt inspired by anything to be able to write something.  If I don’t feel inspired, it’s not going to happen.  At least in a way that sounds good enough to share.

            I’ve also been thinking a lot about the content of this blog.  I keep thinking and telling myself that I write too much about myself and talk about me a lot.  Many of the posts I tried to write were things about me and I kept telling myself, “Everything can’t be about you, you know”.  But then I said, “No, it can on this blog.  It’s my blog and my space to talk about whatever I want”.  So that’s been my dilemma regarding what I post.  My goal, however, is to get back on somewhat of a schedule soon so there will be new content coming.

Mental Health

            I believe mental health is SO important in a person’s life.  Just making sure you are taking care of yourself is important and oftentimes we tend to get wrapped up in the busyness of life that we forget to take care of ourselves.  I know I can relate to that a lot.  I wouldn’t say my mental health is declining; it’s just a little shaky at the moment.  Ever since the beginning of the year I’ve been in a pretty good place with myself and others around me- and still am, it’s just getting to the point where I have to be careful with everything I choose to allow into and influence my life.

            I’m saying this not only about myself, but for other people.  I’ve struggled and faced a lot of challenges this year, most of which I’ve chosen to deal with alone and silently (I know what you’re thinking, and yes I may sound hypocritical at times, but I learn from my own mistakes).  But I just want you to know that it’s perfectly okay to take a step back from something or someone that is preventing you from taking care of yourself and your heart.  That’s the key to mental stability.


            I’ve had a lot of people ask me if I’ll ever vlog or start a YouTube channel.  The answer to that is probably not.  Although I do enjoy watching vlogs, it’s never something I would personally want to do.  I’ve never been super comfortable just talking to a camera.  Making those kinds of videos takes a LOT of work.  I am definitely not saying blogging isn’t a lot of work (it is), but to make a video you have to have: good lighting (which my house does not), take the time to film AND edit, plus the most important part which is having something to film.  I’m not good at just picking up a camera and filming what’s going on.  A lot of times whenever I’m at an event or with someone, I like to take one or two photos to have, but I try to live and be present in the moment.  I think having a camera out all the time would take away from that.  So no, I’ll probably never vlog or make videos.  Words are my specialty and I plan to stick to blogging for as long as possible.

Collaborations and Guest Posts

            The last thing I want to talk about is collaborations.  I’ve wanted to collaborate with someone for the LONGEST time.  The problem is that I don’t know who to collaborate with.  I want to open this invitation to anyone who has ANY interest at all in writing or blogging.  If you are interested, please contact me through email (, Instagram (@beautyinthisbrokenness), or through my Facebook page (Beauty in This Brokenness).  You don’t have to have any experience with blogging, but if you have any interests in sharing your writing, I would be more than happy to work with you.  I’m open to many topics (ex. Lifestyle, beauty, health and fitness, mental health); I just request that you stay away from politics or anything to controversial (we’re just trying to stay positive around here).  So please let me know if you are interested at all!

I think that wraps up everything.  As I said, I’m hoping to resume to somewhat of a normal schedule soon so be on the lookout for new posts.  I’ll talk to you soon!

Tuesday, July 31, 2018

Finding Freedom in Fitness: My Journey

Finding Freedom in Fitness

When I was younger, I never wanted to exercise.  I wasn’t on any sports teams, and because I was homeschooled I didn’t have any kind of Physical Education class.  I hated running and walking farther than a few feet.  My parents always encouraged me to be physically active because I would “regret it later if you don’t start now”.  The state law says that children aren’t allowed to ride in the car without a car seat until they weighed 100 pounds.  I didn’t weigh 100 pounds until I was about 10 years old (far behind most girls my age).

I never worried about exercising when I was younger because I was so skinny.  Extremely skinny.  My friends that were my age could pick me up easily because I was so light.  I could eat whatever I wanted and not gain any weight.  I never had a problem with any of this and it was all great until it came to get new pants.  I hated pant shopping, and still do.  No pants ever fit me.  When I was finally big enough to wear an extra small in the juniors department in tops, I was still wearing a size 10 in children’s pants.  I was also pretty short which made things even worse.

Last fall I got fed up.  I was tired of being tiny and not being able to wear anything.  I decided that I needed to gain weight in order to be able to wear the clothes I wanted.  So I would eat and eat and still not have anything to do with exercise.  I didn’t notice any significant changes and I was still sewing the waist of my pants to make them smaller.  One day, I just thought “what am I doing?  Trying to get fat just to be able to wear my jeans?” And I realized, what I needed to do wasn’t just sitting around waiting to gain enough weight, I needed to become stronger and gain more muscle instead of fat.  The only way to do that was to workout.

I watched some videos on fitness to get inspired and motivated (because honestly I had NO clue where to start).  This is when I found Sam Ozkural.  I started watching some of her videos and she is AMAZING (I highly recommend checking her out).  One day in September, I put together an exercise routine and gave it a try.  I have to say, it was hard.  My body wasn’t used to using up all that energy at once.  But after I finished that first workout, it felt amazing.  Not so much the next day, however.  My legs were so sore I could barely move.  But I felt better than I ever had before.

At first, it was really hard to stay motivated.  The first few months I had a hard time staying focused and on a schedule.  It was hard not seeing the improvements right away.  It was hard to get through the workouts because I was getting tired in the middle of them, but I kept going.  Kept pushing myself harder each time.

Almost a year later, so much has changed.  I’ve been working out consistently 3-4 times a week and I love it.  I can get through the sessions now without getting too overwhelmed or tired, and it is sooo rewarding afterwards.  I still feel tired after a workout, but it’s a good kind of tired.  I can endure longer days without becoming exhausted.  I’ve noticed changes in my body too.  I’m much stronger now (it’s not super visible yet but the muscles are there!), my stomach muscles are stronger, and I’m in much better shape than I was before. 

Now I look forward to my workouts instead of dreading them.  Now I don’t exercise to gain or lose weight.  I don’t obsess over the models on Instagram and try to look at them.  Because I don’t think that should be the purpose of fitness and exercise.  It’s okay to be skinny or a little heavier, every body type is beautiful.  Because it’s YOUR body.  God didn’t make you to look exactly like someone else.  You are unique and special in your own way.  At the end of the day, it’s about being confident about who you are and how you were made.  And that’s what fitness is about for me.

P.S. I still can’t fit in any pants and that will probably be a struggle for the rest of my life

Monday, June 25, 2018

Through Trials of Temptation...

Through Trials of Temptation…

This post is going to be a little different than what I usually write about.  I’m not giving you tips on how to live a good life, telling you what to eat, or what make-up products to use.  I’m hoping that today we can have a heart-to-heart conversation about a problem that is very real and persistent in the lives of so many people. I prayed a lot before I opened my computer to start writing this.  And I pray that you will open up your soul to receive the message I’m going to attempt to convey here.

The only resource I’m using today in this post is my Bible.  I want this to speak to everyone reading this, but specifically the young people here like me, who may be struggling with this issue right at this moment.  There are so many issues going on in our world today that people my age are struggling with and maybe they don’t have anyone to tell them these stories, or maybe they don’t know Jesus at all.  Whatever the case may be, I want this to speak to them.

Eve was the first human to struggle with this.  God had given her and Adam one simple rule to follow.  That rule was that they could eat from any tree in the garden of Eden, all except for the tree of the knowledge of good and evil (Genesis 2:16).  So God told Adam that he could have the fruit from ANY tree he wanted except for that specific tree, or if they did then they would certainly die.  He had a lot of options in the garden for food.  But one day after Eve was created from Adam’s rib, a serpent came along and asked if she and Adam were allowed to eat fruit from the garden.  Eve told the serpent what God had said.  The serpent told Eve that they would not die if they ate the fruit, but that they would be like God and know good and evil (Genesis 3:4-5).

So here she was, in the middle of the garden talking to this serpent, Eve probably didn’t know what to do.  She could just ignore the temptation and follow the rule God had given her and Adam, or she could eat the fruit like the serpent told her to do.  Well, Eve gave in and ate the fruit.  After she ate some herself, she gave some to Adam (and here we also see Adam being tempted by his wife, Eve) who also ate the fruit from the forbidden tree.  This is where sin first began.

Once they had eaten the fruit, what happened next?  Did they die immediately like God said they would?  No, but as you can imagine, God wasn’t so happy.  The first humans had disobeyed him and He decided they must be punishment.  His punishment for man and woman was not death as He had first said, but He punished them by giving them physical and emotional pain that would affect them later in life (Genesis 3:14-19).

Because Eve gave into temptation, sin entered the world.  If Eve hadn’t given into the temptation and didn’t eat from the forbidden tree, could you imagine what our world would be like?  No one would make mistakes, no one would make bad choices, there would be no such thing as a crime, everything would be perfect.  Not exactly.  Because when we sin, we learn from those mistakes and those lessons make us wiser for the future.

Let’s take a look at another example from God’s word.  This time we’re in Matthew chapter 4, during the time when Jesus was fasting for 40 days.  He was led into the wilderness by Satan, who told Him to make stones into bread (Matthew 4:3-4).  Jesus resisted, only to be tempted again by Satan to throw Himself off of a high point on a temple (Matthew 4:5-7).  Again, Jesus resisted.  After that, Satan told Him to worship him and he would give Jesus kingdoms and thrones.  By this time, Jesus had had enough and sent the devil away.

Jesus did not give into the temptation.  Keep in mind, He was also fasting so He was probably very hungry.  But Jesus does not give into any kind of temptations.  He is the example we should live by each time we are tempted by something in our lives.  We cannot resist temptation as easily as Jesus, because we are only human and not perfect.  But we can surround ourselves with positive people and influences that will help us make good decisions.

If you’ve ever been in a tempting situation, you know it’s not so easy to say no.  In fact, it will probably be one of the hardest things you’ll ever have to do.  But the one thing you can do is in that moment, just pray and ask God for His guidance on what you should do.  Then all you have to do is ask yourself, “would Jesus do this?”  That should help you and give you all the wisdom you need to make the best choice. 

Adam and Eve brought sin into this world, but you always have a choice to sin.  We are not perfect and will always make mistakes, but luckily we have a forgiving father in Heaven who does not judge us by our past mistakes and loves us even when we do wrong.  There is nothing greater than His love and grace and He is with us in every situation we face.

Tuesday, May 22, 2018

7 Ways to Stay Healthy and Fit This Summer

7 Ways to Stay Healthy and Fit This Summer

I am so excited to finally announce that…SUMMER. IS. HERE.  For me this means: a trip to the beach, staying up late, bonfires, the county fair, and of course the most important part, no school.  Although so far my summer hasn’t been all that exiting because all I’ve done is binge watch 13 Reasons Why Season 2…but that’s not the point.  Anyway, now that school is out I want to try to post more this summer, so keep an eye out for more new posts.

            Summer can be quite busy for some people.  Traveling, parties, festivals, and all kinds of things can fill up our summer days.  During all this it’s easy to get distracted from our healthy habits and lifestyle.  So today, I want to share a few tips that will help you stay on track during these next few months.

1.  Try some new healthy recipes

We all get bored of eating the same things all the time.  This summer, instead of getting lazy and converting to a junk food diet, try some fresh new healthy recipes.  Pinterest has a variety of easy, healthy recipes that are perfect for summer.  Try some fresh salads or cold veggie wraps for a delicious, healthy meal after a long, hot day.

2.  Change your workout routine

I don’t know about you, but I get tired of doing the same workout routine after a while.  Summer is the perfect opportunity to switch things up a bit and try some new exercises.  Or if you don’t want to change everything completely, try your current routine in a new order.  If you keep the same routine for a long time, a) well it just gets boring, and b) it makes exercising a little more interesting when you have something new to try.  Try a few different things and find what works best for you and your body!

3.  Spend  time outside

It’s summer.  The weather is finally warm, and the great outdoors are practically calling your name.  Take the opportunity to be outside and enjoy the season.  Buy some yard games such as corn hole, latter ball, or a badminton set (which you can find at stores such as Walmart or Target for pretty cheap).  Evenings are the perfect time for having a nice fire in a fire pit.  Take advantage or warm weather and don’t forget to wear sunscreen (because no one likes sunburns)!

4.  Start a new book or series

No more schoolbooks….so that means there’s plenty of time for what I like to call pleasure reading.  Summer is the perfect time to spend your days outside reading a good book.  Set a goal for how many books you hope to read this summer and finish them!  I like to get on Goodreads to check my “to-read bookshelf” and read reviews on books I’m thinking of reading.

5.  Tan naturally

The chemicals used in fake tan sprays and lotions can be harmful and toxic to your body, so avoid using them.  You can get a tan just by spending a few hours outside.  Just an hour each day can get you a little darker (30 minutes on your back or stomach, then switch sides).  But make sure you use sunscreen or else you’ll get a bit tanner than you had planned.

6.  Be active in fun ways

Exercising doesn’t always have to mean squats and lifting weights.  You can easily stay fit by doing some fun things.  Try bike riding on some trails, going on hikes, or even swimming a few laps in the pool.  These activities keep you active and are enjoyable, plus you’re having fun and it doesn’t even feel like a workout!  Grab a friend to do these things with to make it even more fun. 

7.  Drink lots of water

I know this is something you should be doing all year, but during the summer, it is especially important to stay hydrated.  Heat strokes are a real thing, but you can avoid that by drinking lots of fluids.  This summer try to stay away from sugary and energy drinks that are unhealthy and bad for your body.  Try to drink as much water as possible (I usually try to drink 64 oz. a day) and you’ll be good to go for the summer!

That’s all I have for you today!  I hope you enjoyed these tips and if you have any tips on ways to stay healthy this summer, I’d love to hear from you!

Monday, May 14, 2018

My Trip To Washington, D.C.!

(Disclaimer: nothing said here is to “brag” about what I have been fortunate enough to experience.  I wrote this because I know some people like reading these types of posts.  Please feel free to click away at any time you wish).
My Trip To Washington, D.C.!

What’s up everyone?  I hope you’ve been doing well.  I know I’ve been happy to finally see some sunny days and warm weather, and I’m also happy because guess what?  I just got back from vacation!

I’ve wanted to do a travel post for so long now, but the problem was I didn’t travel anywhere.  UNTIL NOW.  So now I’m so excited to tell you all about where I went and what I did while I was there.  Being in high school, it’s a little harder to travel because of many factors, but I’m always thankful for every trip I’m able to go on.  One of my goals for in the future is to travel more (maybe visit another country someday?), so if you like this post please let me know if you’d like to see more travel posts in the future!

So without reading the title of the post (which you probably already have if you’ve made it this far), can you guess where I went?  If you said Washington, D.C., you win the prize (the joke’s on you though because there is no prize).  Anyway, yes I went to Washington, D.C. for the first time a few weeks ago with my family, for a few days.  I thought I’d spend today telling you about my experience there.

Day 1
So on the first full day there (Sunday), we had planned to spend the morning going around and visiting the monuments.  The problem, however, was that it was VERY windy (and just for the record, I’ve been to Chicago too and D.C. was the windiest place I’ve ever been in my life).  So instead, we went to the Museum of Modern History.  I have to say though, that for a Smithsonian, it definitely wasn’t the coolest museum I’ve ever been to.  It had some things that were interesting, but for me it was just another museum.

            After eating lunch there (we packed sack lunches every day we were there), we headed over to the National Archives.  For me it was a super cool experience to be able to see the founding documents.  Obviously I’ve read them in school, but it was a completely different experience to actually see the original documents and read the real handwriting.  We didn’t spend a lot of time in the rest of the building, but it was nothing special anyway.

            After that we spent the rest of the day going to the monuments that we were supposed to go to in the morning.  The weather was slightly better (and less windy) in the late afternoon.  Instead of walking, though, we rode the Metro bus around to each stop (which saved my poor legs a few steps). 

Day 2
            In the morning, we hit up the Museum of Natural History.  Again, I wasn’t too impressed.  I did like it better than the modern history one, however (probably because they had live fish).  We at lunch there then took a bit of a hike to the other side of town, where we got a glimpse of the White House.  It was pretty far away, but now at least I can say I’ve seen it.

            After that we went to what was probably the coolest place I’ve ever been on earth.  If you go to Washington, D.C., make sure you go to the Renwick Art Museum.  I’ve never been a huge fan of art museums in general, but the stuff in this place is unlike any art you’ll ever see.  I’ll let the pictures do the talking on this one….  

When we got done at the art museum, we went and ate at a restaurant called “Old Ebbitt Grill”.  10/10 would recommend eating there if you’re ever in the area.  I got the turkey burger (also would recommend) and it was delicious.  So that was about it for day two.

Day 3
Tuesday, on our last full day in D.C., we went to the Arlington National Cemetery in the morning.  While we were there, we got to watch the “changing of the guard” ceremony at the Tomb of the Unknown Solider (and if you don’t know what that is, I’d recommend looking it up online and watching a video of it).  There are so many soldiers buried at Arlington, many who have served in more than one of the wars.  It’s not the most “fun” or “exciting” thing to see in Washington, but it’s well worth the visit.

In the afternoon, we got to take a tour of the Capitol building.  This was super cool because even though we didn’t get to see all of it, we got to see the Rotunda, along with two other rooms.  The art and structure inside the building is extremely unique, and it’s something to definitely try to do if you’re planning a Washington, D.C. trip.  The tour is electronic, so it’s easy to hear the person talking, while looking around at the same time.

The last place we visited was the Library of Congress.  This was probably my second favorite part of the whole trip, because the inside of it is pretty cool.  You are even able to see part of Thomas Jefferson’s famous book collection, and (through glass) are able to see the main part of the building.

That about wraps up the summary of what we did in Washington, D.C..  While it wasn’t my favorite trip I’ve been on, it is well worth a visit once in your lifetime.  There is an extremely large amount of history held there, and we barely even saw a fraction of it.  But overall, I had a great time there and I’m very grateful to have had the opportunity to go.